Observing My Life

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My Marilyn Mantra

My Marilyn Mantra

This quote from Marilyn has been my mantra for years and little did I know it would get me through some pretty tough times….

Welcome to my “Just Observing” Blog!!  Please stop in often, bring your cup of coffee and visit with me, so I can share what I’ve been observing!

Before we start this journey together, you should know a little bit about me.  I have three sisters, I was married right out of high school but soon learned that I wasn’t quite old enough to “be” married.  I married my current husband 35 years ago and we have two wonderful adult children, well, they’ll always be my babies.

For six years my husband had been commuting from Anaheim to our home in Phoenix, making the six hour one-way drive back and forth nearly every other weekend.  The housing and job markets in Phoenix were awful and this is what we did to keep things going.  I stayed in our home helping the kids finish high school and get started in college.  I worked different jobs while trying to keep my design business going, and at the same time kept things running in our home.

Then two years ago I was in the kitchen of a dear friend when I snapped!  I had just been laid off and the realization of what we had been doing for years had finally sunk in.  I, (you notice I said “I” not “we”), decided to sell the house and get our lives back together and finally live in one state.  After hearing the tone in my voice, my husband didn’t question the decision.  Plans started to form on the big life change when I met with my naturopath for a regular visit.  She discovered something hard in my lower belly, oh the tapping on your stomach that doctors perform actually does mean something; they’re not just pretending to look busy.   The hard something happened to be my kidney, which should have realistically been located in my lower back.  Boomer, as we fondly called my tumor, was discovered after two hectic days of testing and it was found that it had displaced my kidney and quite a few other organs and needed to be taken out quickly.

At the end of two weeks that will forever change my life, all 3 lbs. of Boomer the benign, had been removed.  The effect (he) had on me was not just physical, it was to change me emotionally forever.

I no longer look at things the same way, or hear the same or feel as I used to.  I’m still working through some of the lingering effects, but as I do, I also look at the many courageous individuals I have been blessed to know who deal with or have dealt with much, much worse things than Boomer, and how their energy inspires me.  I can only hope that while I look, hear and feel differently, that I never forget the gift that I was given, or the strength that I have witnessed.

My hope for this blog is to share with you the new sights, sounds and emotions I am filled with since ‘Boom’ was removed and I got the news, “we thought it was cancer, but it’s not…”.

Grateful for you…

(And Court Tuttle at the Blog Builders for helping to create this blog!!)